A Time for Thanks

After Thanksgiving its really been hitting me, this could be my last year being with my family on Thanksgiving, if given the fact that I will be going to Kansas State and won't have the money to come back into Oregon everytime I decide I want to. I come to look at the family that came to us on this thankful day, no one. I don't think they realize that I'm not like everyone else in the family. I have dreams and I'm going to chase them. Im going to keep going after them till I get them in the grasp of my small hands. If that means not going to the near by community college or Oregon State than thats what it means. Im gone in less than a year. I won't be around anymore.
Losing touch with my family is really hard. It seems like the only time we actually see each other is if someone in the family dies or when the decide that they want to vacation near by. Its pretty ridiculous my family, they don't know me as a person, let alone know what I look like its been so long. I talk to my friend and I get jelous because she doesn't have time to talk to me because her whole family is down for the next 3 days just to be around each other and enjoy their company. This is the family time I have always wanted. My parents say, "I don't understand why you get so upset over something so small." But its not small, this is a big deal to me. I have always yearned for the chance to have a family that gets together no matter what the circumstances. Yeah, I understand my parents have never had that but I'm a new generation of people, I guess you would say, kids, teenagers, young adults need their family more than ever right now, and yet I sit at home with the same three on Thanksgiving.
Now don't get me wrong I'm thankful for my mom, dad, little brother and friends that I love dearly but I thought Thanksgiving was supposed to be a day where you gather with these friends and family and give thanks.
After my long time of venting I want to recognize the things I am thankful for:
→ Mom, Dad & Brayden
→ My Many Friends
→ My Ag Advisors, Leah & Sam, And All Their Hard Work They Put In Every Minute Of The Day
→ Having A Warm Home To Come Home To At Night
→ Among All The Other Things That Need Thanks
Even though if I kept going and remembering all the things that have been given to me this year, it wouldn't matter. I know what I'm thankful for. This is just a reminder of what I really need to look back on through the year and let them know how thankful I really am.

♥Kayla Renee